It has been exactly a month since the day I was able to write my third blog. It is still the first semester of my college life but still life has been hard and a bit stressful for the past few weeks. I just study all my readings given by our instructors, do a lot of term papers and sleep, and eat a lot as well ( I usually put all my stress into food, or I am really just hungry). A lot has also happened with my life, it really entwines between the clean cut between studies and home. I have not been able to participate in social activities, have not written any blogs or even update my planner, read any adventure or informative books :( I am really bored to what has my life circled upon. Then at the most dreadful moments of my life I wish I had a high quality camera so that I could capture everything I wish to document no matter how silly or lame it is as long as it captures my attention. I really want one, and I have been saving up for that. It is still a few money for now but in time it will grow and be just enough for the camera I need. I feel that I need it for my journalism ideals and careers. Well, even though I am not venturing to photojournalism, I would like to capture moments where I am able to got this news and so on and so forth.
Am I really this random, from school works to food to camera. Whoa! I know it is really late and I guess any minute now my mom would call me to go to bed to sleep for I have to do lot of stuff tomorrow or later :) and she wants me to be comforted with the warm bed on a cold night. I so love my mom, even though I kept a bit of a personal secret these past months to her and she was able to find out. Well, even though we have fights and stuff I will not exchange my mom for any other mom. She will still be the best mom for me, even though this sentence is really overused, I will still use it to describe her.
I guess I need to go to sleep, by next time I hope I will be able to tell all interesting stuff I have learned from my instructors in this premiere university I am at.
Good night :)
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Hindi ko maipaliwanag kung bakit pero sa gabing ito, ako ay nababagabag. Siguro marahil wala pa akong magawang draft sa isang asignatura ko. Sa Biyernes na kasi ang pasahan nito at nagsisimula pa lang ako sa pinakamaikling parte ng report paper na ito- ang thesis statement. Nakakaloka diba!?!
Isa pa marahil ay wala pa akong napapapirmahan sa kinakailangang signature sheet sa aming organization. Applicant pa lang ako kaya mahirap pang proseso ang pinagdaraanan ko ngayon.
At ang huling dumurog ng aking puso't kalooban ay nang sinabi ng nanay ko (kahit pabiro) na ayaw niya sa lalaking gusto ko :'(
Sana lang tlga hindi ko narinig yun, kasi ang sakit pakinggan, sumisikip ang puso ko bawat minutong naaalala ko. Paano ko sasabihin na hindi ko kayang mawalay sa minamahal ko? Pagpasensyahan niyo na ako kung masyadong korny at mababaw ang pinaghihimutukan ko sa pananaw ng ibang tao, ngunit kailangan ko lang mailabas ang aking nararamdaman sa pamamagitan ng pagsulat dito.
Hindi ako papayag na mangyari yun, bagkus ay kailangang makita ng nanay ko na isang mabuti at responsableng tao ang minamahal ko.
Haay... nakakalungkot lang talaga, sana mawaglit na sa isipan ko ang mga ganitong problema nang sa ganun ay mamuhay ako ng masaya.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
It feels really weird to think that you can't really understand what you feel, what you want. It's already midnight and I still don't know what should be my first priority- to do stuffs or to sleep. Today I am writing a sheepishly blog, so not great for pioneer blog, it's not that epic, but it's intricate. Aside from the confusion of my priority, I am so confused with what I am feeling today. I can sense that I'm happy, the next moment I am deeply sad and lastly I am quite terrified of something yet to be known. I can't fully understand what I am feeling and thinking right now.
Really, I am a complicated person, but I would like to have a sparkle of light in my blogs, a splash of good vibes bursting with positive senses of life. I hope I will be able to guarantee myself and fellow bloggers with this kind of theme.
I finally decide to continue on what I am about to start. :)